Did you or did you not just ask for exactly what you received just now.

[Like, seriously.]

I personally don't give a fuck what you do. You're the one insisting on sitting here playing victim. Do you actually listen to yourself when you say things? Literally everything you've been saying is phrased like you're a good person who made a few mistakes, and now you're being made to suffer by having to watch other people die. Which would be fine and all if you weren't doing that particular whining to the people actually on the chopping block.

We're the ones expected to actually sacrifice ourselves for someone else here. Great that you get to choose to die when you think it's meaningful enough, but we don't get that fucking luxury. Think before you open your mouth.